Date: Friday, August 14, 2009

AUGUST 14, 2009

1

I curled my hair.:D

2
Ho Min asked a lot of questions to my ja gi. Damn so talkative!!! "hyung! look at your back. who's she?" *well it was me* "hyung.ah, i realized, why do you have almost the same shoes?" blabla...

3
I got headache when we were at the gym cos of the heat. Jagi got worried so he borrowed a fan and started fanning me. Bee too, fanned me. Efforts appreciated.

4
앗싸! FOOR SHARING! :D Lotsa foods. Ate my ice cream fist. Dangg, that was 350php!

5
Ex texted. He asked me if we can talk after class. Said Ok. Got nervous, of course.

6
Didn't eat lunch. Just sat with my Ja Gi and his friends. Let Ja Gi read my ex's text messages. He didn't allow me to meet with EX. He said, maybe he'll just ask me to break up with him. Sought for raj's advice. He said, i better meet with my ex. CLOSURE is important. I said, but ja gi won't allow me!!! Then Raj told Ja gi to allow me. :D

7
Got bored with his friends cos none of them were talking. I asked ja gi to go up with me but he didn't want. I begged him but still NO. Hitted him. And walked away. Maybe he got scared so he followed me. Then there was no one on the corridor, so he 뽀뽀 me. HAHA! LIPS >_< He didn't ask permission!!!!!!!!! Anyway, 081409. Our first kiss.

8
Voted. Made a pyramid out of empty bottles with JP. Almost finish but BANG!!! -_- Cleaned the room. Got pissed cos the peeps were like, they attended a party, spilled some foods then left.

9
Ja Gi texted. He asked me not to meet EX. I texted ex. I said Ja Gi doesn't want me to meet him. But ex said... "But i'm here already. Come here. Please?" Then texted ja gi. Told him that ex said, after meeting ex, he won't disturb me and ja gi anymore...

10
The moment of regrets

*i sat 1.5ft away from ex. he was smoking really hard. waited for him to talk first*

EX: What did your ja gi say?
ME: he doesn't want me to meet you.
EX: Are you angry?
ME: NO

*ex got 3 cigars and started to smoke again*

EX: Do you think i have other gf?
ME: Yes. Park su hee.
EX: Her father owns an internet cafe. Then she saw my password. Then she opened my cyworld and put her pics there. Last time, i got angry at you, right? Because i thought it was you who was changing the settings of my cyworld.

...

EX: Can you understand what i am saying?
ME: yes
EX: Do you believe me?
ME: T. Shirley said, i must believe on whatever you'll say
EX: *with a higher tone of voice* You. I'm asking you if you believe on what am i saying?
ME: I dont know. You became couple, right?
EX: What?How did you know? I told you. She was hacking my cyworld. She was leaving comments on her cyworld using my account.
ME: Okay

*ex got another 2 cigars and started smoking again*

EX: *while covering his eyes* When did....when did you....*sighs*
ME: WHat?
EX: When did you and andy become a couple?
ME: Aug3
EX: Why don't you have date today?
ME: His father doesnt know yet

*stopped talking...after 10mins*

EX:When did you think i have another girlfriend?
ME: July 5
EX: When did we break up?
ME: I dont know
EX: You dont know?

*paused*

EX: Don't you have any questions?
ME: None
EX: Ask me anything, i'll answer...
ME: I have no questions.

*he got another 6 cigars. finished a pack of malboro red*

EX: You can leave now...
*i stood up*
EX: Di ba, you said, you're happy...
ME: Yes...
EX: Oh take this
*gave me my fave bubblegum...*

11
Separated. I felt that it was the time that he let me go. I was almost crying... Reached home. Locked the door and cry. REGRETS, maybe.

12
EX texted...
EX: we're friends now.right?
ME: okay..
EX: I know it's your fave bubble gum so i gave you one..
ME: I'll just keep it. Maybe i'll just cry if i'll eat it.
EX: Eat and don't cry :) I'll give you more if you want..:)
...
EX: 진. DOn't cry. OK?
ME: how did you know i'm crying? you're crying too?ㅋㅋㅋ
EX: Maybe...


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Aww. I'm so upset today. Like full of regrets. But i have ja gi now...
EX was just too late. I know, he was sincere cos i was there with him and i saw sincerity in his eyes.
He set me free, now... He let me go. It just hurts *emo-ish but truee...*

Can you feel my pain? Or do you want me to call you and cry so you can?

Signing Off~